I guess in lack of a better title coming to mind, I'll just call what follows an explanation. It has been too long of a time, since I have known what it is like to get enough sleep. I wake up with headaches that sometimes are still with me when I lay my head down for the evening...headaches that laugh at pain killers. This all has to do with neck and back problems that have plagued me most of my life.
I am still having problems with my leg injury, and am beginning to dread the possibility that I will always have to live with the bouts of puffiness and swelling that come and go too often, for the rest of my life.
I have an old cat that I spend much time with trying to make his last days good days, and he is requiring a lot of care.
A husband working in Afghanistan that I worry about constantly, and only see one month a year.
I take care of everything at home...everything, and I commute to the job which takes eleven hours out of each day. I work very hard to keep a positive attitude about me, and love life to it's fullest.
I did what I never do, I left a sarcastic comment on someones post, someone I care about a lot. I had earlier received a comment on my post that threw me for a loop, hurt me, made me cry. My friend just got lucky or unlucky, I guess...bad timing...I deleted it and apologized, but that doesn't make it right. I am so ashamed of myself.
I need to get away from this computer for a while, and put this blogging back into it's correct perspective. I need time to finish rearranging my home to put the things I love best completely back into my life. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and sometimes that is just not such a good thing to do, but it is so totally me. I'm realizing that this blogging has bad along with the good, and I don't know if I want to deal with that part of it. I'm beginning to feel that perhaps I should go private, and tell my stories just for me, daughter, and husband. I need some time to think.
My backyard sunset photo...played around with it a bit, cause I can. I do miss the brilliant sunrises and sunsets of Nevada where I grew up at. Here's a little whatever I am leaving with you...lesser art perhaps...but I like it.
A Dog's Plea for Equality