Friday, March 15, 2024

Muddy Waters

I’ve been listening to ‘On the Nature of Daylight’ by Max Richter… probably stuck with me from ‘The Leftovers’ movie I saw yesterday, or perhaps 'Arrival' seen years ago, but still remembered.

It is sublimely sad and haunting in a lonely way.  Describes perfectly how I feel at this moment.

It is so difficult pulling myself out of this funk a lifetime of years has buried me into, but I keep trying.      

It is equally difficult to pull happiness out of the air I breathe in order to create a life that is sun shiny bright to write about when I feel only pain.

This is a downer, but it is me at the moment.

It's not recommended tripping over an insignificant step stool, as the consequences have been so painful, it is common to rehash them in terms of a hellish nightmare.

The pain of the fall and the triggering of my pinched nerve pain, well it was difficult to separate the two for a week.  Ultimately the pinched nerve pain elevated itself into optimum mode, and required a steroid shot to soothe it back down.

The real pain was waiting around the corner when my sciatica nerve became so excruciatingly horrible, I wanted to die with each footstep I managed to take.

After several weeks, I can walk with a knife twisting through my ankle feeling with each step, but hey, I’m getting used to the pain as if I was born with it.  It will be Hallelujah time when it is no more.


My birthday came and went along with my incomplete blog post.
  A card did appear from my cats but debunked by Charlotte tattling on her daddy buying his version of card for the kitties.


She washed her butt and as she meandered out of my sight down that dark hallway, I could hear her whisper “Get real!  What is one day from another… it’s just one day from another.  We’re lucky to have eighteen years, while you so extravagantly have seventy-seven-years so far.”


So much for that!






Growing plants in the house… well, I don’t recall how I chucked them out of existence, but it must have been brutal at the time, as I have nothing left to ever suggest they even existed.

Fast forward twenty years…

Eleven have been mail ordered this past six months… okay, fifteen originally, but two met an untimely death when they became so leggy I put myself out of misery, and they became yesterday’s trash.  Two others were duplicates that were to be planted as two to a pot, but they became quite robust so only one per pot and the other two were tucked with sadness into the bottom of the kitchen waste bin.

A terrible end… 

My bad.


Peperomia Fraseri
Recovering from third planting.
Toothpicks holding it up
until rooted well :)


I’ve failed so many times with these poor little souls that they, along with me, feel like ping pong balls being batted back and forth endlessly.
  They have quite a bit of tenacity, surviving my blackened thumb.

The internet literally has about 3,830,000 opinions for how to mix the potting soil for these little buggers.  They will typically grow on trees, rotten logs, bark, and rocks, which makes these plants both epiphytes and lithophytes, depending on where they’re growing.

I think all of mine grow south of the equator, as they have been growing and blooming this winter.  So… after much reading, most of it wasted, these are my conclusions.

I think by now my husband would be nodding off in indifference, so if you wish to join him, have at it.

I originally began planting them in wonderfully thick raku planters made by Letsgetmuddy on Etsy, using Fox Farm Ocean Forest potting soil.  This soil creates surface tension preventing water from freely soaking into the soil.  I think this is a problem that happens to most soils in pots.

I water, wait awhile, then water again so the soil will soak it all in well.   It’s a pain in the neck, but necessary.

I tried pumice on two plants, and Orchiata bark from New Zealand on some of the others.  I mix 50% potting soil and 50% pumice or small orchid bark.  Medium size orchid bark might be better, but I only have the small.  It’s all a gamble.  Do not use perlite.  It just crumbles into nothingness. Quite a disaster when I tried to mix it.

It's quite a mess, all the problems people have with peperomias.  The photos make a gardener want to weep.  Over watered, underwatered, not enough light, too much light…HELP!

Peperomia 'Rosso'
May become a group of minature trees 
after the bottom leaves fall off :(


Mine have overhead plant lights to slow down the leggedness, and I poke my finger into the soil or feel the weight of the pot to determine when to water.  One must check their plants every day, just as if they are children or pets.  If you have no time, then stop yourself from buying one.

I group mine together to raise the humidity around them.  Nothing else will raise the humidity, no matter how many times you are told a product will.  Mine need lots of company. 

In winter when the heat pump is on more often, the humidity drops, and they need to be watered more often.  Summer, when they are resting a bit, they need to be watered less.  One must always check to stay on top of it all.

Peperomia elongate was a splurge, because of the higher price, and just as two new leaves began to open, I checked one day too late to water and to my horror, the new baby leaves fell off.

Peperomia elongata
With it's little flower spike
that is still growing taller.



Two more peeked out some weeks later, and I babied the little toddler until they are now almost full grown.  It is sending up a flower spike that will disappoint if you are looking for spectacular.  Most people call them ‘rat’s tails’, but in reality, they are just stems lined with extremely tiny flowers.

I think those with a spirit of adventure will enjoy Peperomias.  If you’re like me, failure is not an option.  It is just a set back to be overcome.

I seemed to have almost talked your ear off if you are a plant lover, if not, then I’m sure you left ten paragraphs ago to scream bloody murder, determined to skip the next post.

Anyone still reading this...

The few photographs I took from my front porch of the garden, and my resident Cooper's Hawk picking off my mourning doves for a tasty meal :(  Better photos will follow in the months to come, if I ever get over the pain of my fall.




A Grey Tree Frog on the garbage bin.





Mourning Doves puffing up feathers on a cold day.








Took me more than fifteen minutes of taking photographs
to finally realize a Cooper's Hawk was in the garden.  Do you see it?








Cooper's Hawk with a down feather in its beak.
With the amount of feathers, 
I'm guessing its victim was a Mourning Dove.
























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23 comments:

  1. You paid a lot of attention for your garden. That is why it is looking so beautiful

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  2. What a beautiful series of photos.
    The Cooper's Hawk is really beautiful..
    The garden is also very beautiful.
    I know what a lot of pain is, more than three years ago I fell on my shoulder blade and got a frozen shoulder as a result and I still suffer from it, fortunately the pain is less now, but it was really so intense that I sometimes I said that it would be better to give birth to a child, because the pain does not last as long as it does now.
    Greetings Irma

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  3. A Tree Frog AND a Cooper’s Hawk. Now that’s very special! I doubt the Mourning Doves would share that opinion, however.

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  4. Hello,
    I am sorry you have been in so much pain. Your garden images and house plants are all lovely. I leave the plant care to my hubby, he has the green thumb. The frog is cute and I love the sweet Dove. Great captures of the Copper's Hawk. Happy belated birthday! Take care, enjoy your day and your weekend!

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  5. ...house plants are my new obsession, some I've killed with kindness, some just die and some are doing well. I look forward to seeing your garden in bloom.

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  6. So sorry to hear of your fall and resulting chronic pain (new and/or reactivated). Glad the steroid shot was able to relieve some of it at least. I hope the rest resolves itself soon. Your photos of the Cooper's Hawk are magnificent!

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  7. I am so sorry about all your pains and suffering. Hopefully your garden and all the wildlife sightings will give you some confidence. Your pics look fantastic.
    Best wishes
    Arti

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  8. Hello,
    I do hope you are feeling better now! I always enjoy seeing your garden and the cute garden critters. Great captures of the Frog, I also love the Dove and the Cooper's hawk. Thank you for linking up and sharing your post. Take care, enjoy your weekend. PS, thank you for leaving me a comment.

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  9. So sorry to hear of your fall and the pain your are having. Hoping your lovely garden brings you some joy. A garden can be therapy for the soul.

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  10. I loved the kitty statues. They are beautiful. The hawk does what the hawk does, but he/she is beautiful too. The puffed plumes of the mourning doves makes them look gorgeous. Thanks for sharing your photos. Be well!

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  11. I once again browsed through your website and once again found it to be unique, touching and beautiful!

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  12. Beautiful images of them, Cooper Hawk is the best, we have one a Sparrowhawk Yvonne.

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  13. Love the frog photo and despite its nature the cooper hawk is a great photo too ~ do hope you are feeling better ~ lots of healing energy hugs to you ~

    Wishing you good health, laughter and love in your days,
    A ShutterBug Explores,
    aka (A Creative Harbor)

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  14. Beautiful captures of the tree frog, hawk and the dove!
    Godspeed your recovery!

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  15. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been in so much pain.
    I enjoyed seeing your garden and all the lovely critters.
    Your photos never cease to stun, Yvonne.

    Hugs and blessings

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  16. WOW, love the hawk and that fat frog.
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  17. Hawks have to eat also. Every once in a while on one of my hikes or walks I'll come across a bunch of feathers and I say a little prayer for the critter that the hawk ate.

    I hope you got some relief from pain somehow.

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  18. now, that's the post that made my morning and made me smile ;-))
    sorry about you pain and hope the situation will get better. my plants just keep dying on me (no wonder, I barely water them and when I read how you pamper yours... shame on me ;-)

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  19. You are far more patient and diligent than I am with plants! I can tell you love them and I know your hard work will pay off. But I'm so sorry about your trip-and-fall and all the complications that came after. I'm glad that things are on the mend but till you are completely pain free, it's a rough go. Hang in there.

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  20. I hope to be better as soon as possible.
    Thank you for the visit and comment. I'm glad I visited you again. Your photos are so beautiful. A hawk? So close to you? And the frog is incredible...
    Be well and have a good weekend!❤️😘

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  21. I am sorry to hear about your pain. Wishing you a speedy recovery. I hope the garden and the critters bring your joy and comfort. Beautiful photos.

    -Soma

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  22. So sorry, reading about your pain. And I hope you get help from the doctor. Understand now better what you wrote in the comment at my last Post.

    Your Post here is wonderful... I enjoyed the caprures, the description of the plants. Thank you for sharing.

    Greetings and hugs by Heidrun

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  23. Hello ivonne, What you described is a bit similar to what I have also had for years with the other chronic pains. Because Angioplasty of the legs and heart every year is also what i must do. And I was told some years ago that I have also Piriformis syndrome. Unfortunately, I am allergic to all the nsaids there are to suppress the pain. physiotherapy had not helped me either and only cost me many euros from my wallet. I also once had 2 injections and less than a day later it looked like I had fallen into the nettles and got blisters and a terrible itching. That was really terrible. I still have scars on my legs because what do you do when you have a terrible itch? Just scratching and I got scabs that didn't go away 1, 2, 3. It goes one day better than the other. Notice with walking too and yes I take blood thinners and so am not allowed to do everything else. That makes it even more difficult for me. I have to learn to live with it. 😞

    So I hope for you that your symptoms will also diminish a bit because in your case it was a fall. And yes, I like also growing plants and sometimes that doesn't go well for me either, but it's still fun to do. And it keeps me busy so other thoughts fade to the background. On my balcony I already have many plants that are doing well. I really like your garden and especially that you photographed a beautiful tree frog and the hawk. All your pictures I found beautiful. I am not only a people person but also a nature person and I enjoy everything people share or what I see myself once. Nature is like us just as trees are too. And though we sometimes have twists and turns on our path of life we will endure. Greetings, tine

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