I've always thought adversity and heartache, burdens and misfortunes; mingled with
gladness and comfort, good fortune and self-indulgence were the abstracts in
life that made it all so darn super interesting…even though at times
our destiny, as it unfolds, makes us want to run for our lives to the nearest
exit.
Friendships,
pseudo-friendships, trust, misplaced trust, believing, questioning, speculations
that are sometimes obvious, other times invisible, coupled with logic, instincts,
and luck…all that pretty much determines our successes and our failures,
determines whether we are losers or winners…labels we sometimes attach to ourselves,
but mostly to others.
Am I a
success? I’d like to think so, but it
all depends on how one chooses to look at the individual and the whole. I've had tremendous successes and I've had
miserable failures. It’s all by-products
of a life lived to the max. We can be
fatalistic or we can be optimistic at how we view our lives unabridged. Chose positive! The other choice just leads down the wrong
road to the wrong destination in a bad way.
A
beautiful day as I look out my window, a day for tinkering in the gardens and
relaxing on the swing with fond memories drifting through my thoughts.
Sometimes I hate emails, too swift, like a gun. The old pen and ink and the process of finding the stationary allows time to gather one's thoughts.
ReplyDeleteNo one can steal memories of yesterday. Sorry for your loss.
I cannot even come up with anything trite to say to make it better; we hurt when we hurt. You can only move forward when you are ready.
ReplyDeleteQuite a sharing here -- I endured something similar last year that took months to get over. My blog went blank. It has informed my art though. Your phrase "Friendships, pseudo-friendships, trust, misplaced trust, believing, questioning, speculations that are sometimes obvious, other times invisible, coupled with logic, instincts, and luck" kind of sums it up. I am sorry for your loss and for the unnecessary pain and betrayal you have endured as well. I read a quote the other day that is apt (Nietsche) and meaningful to me: "The demon that you can swallow gives you its power, and the greater life's pain, the greater life's reply."
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